This Stupid Roller Coaster Ride!

I have been crying the last three days straight, and I am very weepy.  So, I need to vent.

I am just so freaking tired of all of this crap:

losing my hair,

this stupid rash,

taking all of these horrible pills,

taking all these horrible liquid meds and herbs,

my stomach being all icky most of the time,

getting headaches and eye pain when I try to read,

having migraines daily,

my eyes becoming sensitive to light again,

feeling needles and pins in my eye,

numbness and tingling in my feet and hands,

tenderness all long my spine,

being so tired no matter how long I sleep,

having stiff and achy joints,

being so weak at times,

the intermittent nerve pain,

this stupid roller coaster ride,

not being in control of my body,

and feeling so blue each new cycle,

and, most of all, for feeling this way right now.

Maybe this all came to a head because the anniversary of my two best friends’ deaths was yesterday.  Or, the news that my aunt has at most eight weeks to live. 

So very, very angry with myself right now, for feeling this way right now.

(Let yourself be angry.  We can’t always remain positive. We need to let go of the negative energy that’s inside us. Vent, scream or beat a pillow, you need to let it go.)

Lessons Learned: