It Could Be Much Worse I Know

You know when I realized that I was going to have to fight Lyme and its conspirators again. I was really afraid I’d lose my sight again. Thank God, I didn’t. As I have been sitting here, I realized that losing my hearing this time around is a much better blessing this time around. I can still appreciate all the lovely things around me. Yesterday, I watched a very small herd of deer in our yard and a couple of bucks interlocking their antlers and sparring. They look like they were really enjoying themselves. I am just so thankful I was able to see and appreciate them. I also can wake up and see my sweet pea breathing and staring directly in my face saying, “Ma, get up, I have to go out and I’m hungry.” Such a cute and sweet face, who cares about the dog breath.

You know, what I found curious is that I was actually able to hear or sense the phone ringing yesterday. It was my mother in law; I let my husband take the phone since I haven’t been able to hear a thing for a few weeks now. She has news that it was just a matter of days now, it was decided that my husband would just go back for the funeral. My aunt, she is just amazing. I just think that she would be happy and healthy when she is in heaven. She wouldn’t have to suffer all this pain and frustration that I am sure she is going through…it would be selfish to wish that she stay here and endure this any longer. She would never be forgotten, always remembered.

Well, that’s it for now. I will enjoy today like there is no tomorrow, in silence, but it will be a fantastic day with no distractions. Ha, ha.

Gratitude: